L0S7M1ND's blog

From God help me? to God Helped Me!, my life went from crazy insane, looking very bad & grim. To Crazy Insane laughing & loving it. lol. And no I didn't go back to drugs. So here's the update:

Wow, our government is awesome. My social worker has refused to pay for me to stay at the homeless shelter for any more then a few nights. I can only stay till the 15th.

Well, I have a temp home now. Went through treatment and cleaned up again from my addiction. Now i'm staying in a homeless shelter till the 15th.

Fuck... Thats about as much energy I have to express how I feel now days. I feel fucked up, I don't see much reason to hope, and I don't know what to do, or where to go anymore.

Cycle.. What cycle you ask? Well, the one that is my life..

Well, I've managed to get a job. I was lucky enough that esso overlooked my lack of employment for the last 2 years, & they decided to give me a chance. Work is going good, but I still don't feel all that happy with life. I know I should be happy that at least I got a job. But its hard when you know you have skills at something else & they are simply sitting there not being used. I'm a self-taught computer tech normally, but not having any actual training, I've had to do as so many others & settle for a job, any job.