kasper28's blog

Hello everyone,
Long time no see... i am now permantently off the streets and living in my own 1 bedroom apartment in Guelph, Ontario. I am also now drug free and go to Narcotics Anymous on a almost daily basis. I hope to here from some of the friends i made back in montreal and ottawa, and I can maintain my housing and not fuck up.

yours truly,

Grant Renshaw

i've left montreal and am in hamilton doing what i can to better my health. hope y'all are fine

Shared With You

Touch me, my body lies here exposed just for you
I am naked, waiting, needing your tender affection
Am I beautiful, do I bring pleasure to your eyes
Do you burn deep inside for me with an unbridled passion

Explore the thoughts of my mind, search every inch of my heart
As I lay down here before,look down into my very core
Can you see and feel the love that I have hidden here inside, just for you
Do you still have questions as to why you remain as my pride and joy

Travel here with me, share in life's journeys
Partake of my tears, my joys, my triumphs and my defeats

The Angels

The gate now stands there before us
Guarded by the angels as they watch us with unhiddden envy and wonder
For they were created for our guidance, comfort, and protection
They fail to possess our gift of free will

Man, they say was created in the image of God
Seems bent on his own destruction, regardless of the earths' cost
Remember, it was our rebellious nature that cost us Eden
Our need for bloodshed that caused the Messiah to hang upon a cross

War is more about the love of money, then about our freedom
The rich stay safe, and get fatter as our loved one are sacrificed and left to die

Final Request

Your body is perfect in it's physical structure
I am drunk in desire for youe sexual indulgence
Confusing my lust, to be love, set in time immortal
I blind myself entirely to the truth

For I am, and was just a silly pawn in your game
I became a source for money, a toy for sex, and a puppet for you to control
To say that Karma does exist is pointless, because baby, you had me fooled

The drugs are what seemed to bind us together
As I foolishly bowed down before your wrath, and constant anger
I loved you, despite your flaws, as I fought desperately to keep you
Emotionally, unstable I wounded myself and entertained suicidal tendiences

The Madman

Feeling so old and so alone he just sits there, ever gazing out his window
Unloved and bitter, twisted thoughts of anger and violence race within his mind
As his mind replays the loss of his wife, the death of his children
Knowing he remains unwanted, uncared for, just a social disease

Within the recessess of his mind he entertains such dangerous and violent fancies
In the night he finds comfort and solace in his evil and demented plans
Conumed by an hatred of life, his thirst for destruction remains unquenched
With a wild, infalmed passion he vows revenge on his enemies, even to his death