open letter to estranged offspring

Dear _______

What's to say really except that our estrangement provides the miserly welfare bureaucracy with one more SUCK CESS story because they've got the destruction of our family unit to their discredit.

We nevertheless made as valiant an effort as possible to follow our own hearts, to no avail with the cards stacked against us. So I trust you realize that I certainly never meant to let you down or do you any harm. Believe me, please...

I didn't stand a chance of being a valued member of society by virtue of being born a female in a heartless, cultureless culture of economics that exploits our unpaid &/or cheap labour while we provide the labour market with another generation of workers, as well as more fodder for military exploits.

It was naive of me to assume that parenting would be treated as a worthy undertaking (unless it's performed by a movie star) because the endeavour has been co-oped by the state that robs mothers of their natural authority, thanks to the capitalist economy where every aspect of the human condition is distorted into a commodity.

What I very much regret is having burnt out while you were still counting on me but I wasn't mighty mouse after all. Obviously, no one can take on the world singlehandedly, or shoulder all of the blame for whatever goes wrong in it. And I overestimated my parenting qualifications in the absence of a partner, extended family, community & culture.

Under the circumstances, forgiving oneself, or more aptly making peace with oneself, is easily the best course of action. I found the C.P. Estes rendition of forgiveness in WWRWW sensible & workable... My life also changed radically as soon as I began to rely on my own intuitive wisdom.

What more can I say, except that I'm lucky I got to be a mom (all things considered) because I wanted to be a mom. And no one can rob me of my fond memories (before the shit hit the fan) or undo blood ties, that's a given!

Love & luck always!

Skeletonwoman