kara

i've had so little motivation to seek work. i know it's something i need to do to survive, but i can't be bothered.
started doing the projections video project again, so i get a small honorarium, but it won't be enough. just been waiting for my old job to become available to me again. which won't be too long now. i have romanticized my old job by now. imagining it to be the only job i'll be happy with.

plus, i'm reading factotum right now, and it is not motivating me to get a job.
last night my dreams were everything poor, dirty, drunk and working class.
fucking bukowski.
i take that back.