The Benifits Of Living Life and Learning From my Past

2009.12.02 - 12:50 PM

So as you may or may not know, I decided to get clean off of all drugs and alcohol on Nov.26th of 2007 and since that time I learned a lot about myself and how I can (or sometimes can't) function in "normal society". I got a great job working with The City of Vancouver and I made some really great friends (real ones this time and not just voices in my head!) that support and love me no matter how spun out I get sometimes. But all this wasn't enough to stop the eventual relapse that I had in September of 2009. I allowed the walls and defense mechanisms of my learned behaviors of my youth and the life I led on the streets come back up. This causes a domino effect in my life, that in hindsight I actually saw but choose to ignore and it eventually took me to a place where I made a decision to drink again. I am happy to say that it didn't take me years to get back to the Fellowship and that I am once again going strong with my recovery as of October 31st, 2009, but all that could change in an instant if I don't remain honest with myself and those around me. Vigilance against this baffling power of addiction coupled with what I have learned in AA is my only defense against that first drink or drug use. The coolest thing I have learned these last couple of years is that I can choose to be loaded or not. I can choose a better life for myself that doesn't involve hustling drugs, shady people, living on the streets, and crime. I can choose a life, though overwhelming at times and hard to deal with I can make it thorough the day to day with the hand of AA always there to lead the way.

Comments

jhock on 2009.12.02

Thanks for sharing,all the best on your Journey...cheers..JH

MissAngellCain on 2009.12.02

Thank you so much for this post! I have a friend whom is living life out on the street and struggling with addiction. I want to believe that there is light at the end of the tunnel for him and it is possible! I too have struggled with addiction yet I was fortunate enough to have family that took me in and supported me. I know from my own experience that dealing with addiction is a lifelong journey.

SQUEE on 2009.12.04

dude that was pretty deep there homie good for you on your path in life...i have seen you at your worst and i'm proud of you on how much you have changed over the years

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mavie44 on 2013.09.14

Make your past experiences your path through righteousness, don't ever do the same mistakes again and learn from your mistakes. Don't be misguided by the bad elements around you except make them as your shield. - Travis Jones Rush Properties

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