frederick

http://www.red811.20fr.com/

why do i have to struggle with this stupid addiction day after day whenever i have some money in my pocket i feel the urge to spend some of it on crystal and every day i have daydreams of smoking crystal, why did god ever introduce me to such a addictive harmful but soooo good of a chemical maybe it's not god at all but it feels like heaven whenever i am so so high, maybe it is satan, and all of his minions, just remember the paranoia that i felt last time that i got so high i couldn't even leave the room i live in and all of my life stopped all of my ambitions just disappeared
think about it

well it is x-mas time and everyone is doing there darndest to try and be nice well i have been buying people beer and being nicer than usual besides the fact that i am mourning the death of my brother marvin who died last week from an overdose of heroin
anyways i can pretend to be good and hide my thoughts and feeling but my true self knows what i am thinking , thinking of death, last night i went around doing graffiti writing KILL ME all oover the poster
i guess i'll die another day