And the cycle completes...
Cycle.. What cycle you ask? Well, the one that is my life..
Yet again I come crashing down. I was doing well, working lots got money put away to get a truck. Then bang, back to the depression. Eating less & less, sleeping less & less. Feeling less energetic & finally not caring. Every time my life starts to get going better I feel this way. I look around & realize that I've worked for 4 months with nothing to show for it other than some money in the bank. I realize that I need money to survive but, when your just surviving & have no close friends, and no one to share life with, it all seems so meaningless. And of course feeling so miserable with things going "good" in my life, I then proceed to trash it all smoking myself stupid, wasting money on junk, & the real kicker, skipping out on work to the point that I'm probably fired. *sigh* every time..
So my question to everyone is, what keeps you going when you feel there's no reason to keep going?
What keeps me going personally is remembering that this life isn't all there is. I think about what it will be like when Jesus comes back and I get to go with Him to heaven, where there will be no more suffering! That's about it. I know what you mean about how it seems pointless sometimes to just work because we need money to live. There's got to be more to life.
I hope that helps. Do you have any beliefs about what happens after death?
Allie :)
meditation has helped me....there is a technique called Vipassana which helps break the cycle of suffering..I did a 10day NOble silent retreat and i learnt skills that will be with me my whole life.Its about detachment and focusing the mind and watching your breath...anyways don't take my word for it experience it yourself(you can do a google search vipassana if you want more info on it)
JH
Maybe all we can do is write, but others near you do care too.
Life has been going up and down for me, for all of us.
I do Buddhism, yoga, running, breathing and I still feel like many times.
My family thinks I'm a loser. I have a non friend that is really an ex non friend friend, but she loves her real boyfriend. Hey, many people would think guys are shallow not wanting a real relationship,, but i wanted one with her and i still am looking for a new love of my life. But I have to get my ass out of this sling first.
I don't know what it takes to get things back together. I taught Sunday school and did the church thing for about twenty years. I stopped because I saw how limited is a heaven of homophobic people who claim they have all the right answers.
Now I am living with some guys who are the very people I left behind.
So you, like me have to play the game of life.
In the end, maybe this is all just a game of life that one can change the rules of the game to fit at the exact time they are living. Maybe bend the rules. I don't know. I don't claim to have all the answers.
but times do get better (as I try to connivance my own self.)
Only you can and only you should be the judge of your own life and let all others be damn (per say) who try to damn you. Sometimes to come back and to look life right back in the eyes even if you look in the mirror, is the correct thing to do.
If you can do that, then you must be doing the right thing.
I'm a very bad example and so this next one from the movie I just saw:
The Brave One with Jodie Foster.
She went to gun down and kill the guys in a gang who killed her boyfriend and that left her for . Along the way she killed a few other bad guys (damn but aren't women bad too?)
She always said that when she pulled the trigger of the gun her hands didn't shake.
Finally the cop (a GOOD COP! But that is Hollywood right? In our dreams about GOOD COPS but there are a lot of good cops). Finally, the good cop who had a clue it was her, stopped her from the last bad guy.
He had a plan to prove her . But she had to shoot him to make his plan work.
She said, "Why is my hand shaking?"
The Good Cop said, "Because this is a bad plan, just shoot hit me in the heart!"
Were are lost boys and s and lost souls, but along the way, we find each other, or in the process, we find ourselves.
hang in there kid, some else maybe counting on you too.
~~~~~FreddieCrazyThingCalledLove
We can't stop homelessness but we can help fight it.
FreddieCrazyThingCalledLove
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