It's so easy to fall back down

I've a long term street kid. I've spent many a night and day digging in dumpsters and flailing down alleys. I've stayed in the most decrepit squats and tent cities. I've panhandled I've merched. I first came down here at 14 but didn't end up stuck down here until I was 16. I'm now almost 22. I've watched many people come from this scene we like to call the "GONG SHOW" some cleaning up there act for what ever personal reason, some going to jail for a long time or getting sent back home and even some dieing or being killed. I got out of here for a year. I had my own little reason, a perfect little miracle named Rayne.
My boyfriend and I were squatted under the Granville bridge and on my 19th birthday we get into a fight... The police roll by and notice us yelling at each other and I told him it's over. I went to walk away and he grabs a knife from the ground and starts cutting his arm... He had